Day 100 of #100daysoflovingmoney
Here it is the last day of this challenge I set out for myself Back on Jan 30 of this year. I started it because I was So Tired of being Twisted up about money on most days. There is hardly a day that goes by that we are not affected by money in some way and most of the time I had some anxiety or mindset around it that made it a very emotional piece to my day.
100 Days of being intentional about something will defiantly take you down some roads you didn't know were there until you are looking for them. Some of them were enlightening and some were really painful. Some I did with grace and ease and some not so much. There were some that caused some hurt feelings and some that brought me peace that I have needed for a really long time.
At lunch the other day I had a friend ask me what was the biggest lessons I gained from all of this so here are my biggest take a way's.
* That what we believe about money is just a mind game --and it CAN be CHANGED at anytime if your willing to take Full Responsibility for ALL of it and take the time to rewire the story in your head.
* Being a supportive partner who is being financially supported is a really special place. I get to be what I call the "back office" team mate and I did not realize how much that has supported our family once I took the Guilt off of it. I may not always play this role--it may switch--it may change but that has been my role for the past decade and for the first time I feel as if I can truly appreciate this space I am in !
* That my actions tell me A LOT about my BELIEFS
* I had to make money a friend, a
partner, a resource;
NOT the ENEMY or the SOLUTION. This actually might have been the biggest one
The most RADICAL SHIFTS DURING THIS TIME came from THESE !!!
* When I made PEACE with my deceased
father in law and the $$ attached to him
* The time I did some releasing with my ancestors
on the belief of LACK--
HUGE shift and SO much space in my body to filled with more beautiful serving thoughts !!
*The moment I refused to apologize about something that I believed and felt even though it came with some opposition. I think we all need that moment (especially woman) where we STOP apologizing for who we are and how we feel even if others don't agree with you !
Looking over my list I can see that the majority of my shifts and change of attitude required more than just shifting how I managed money, or if I learned more about how investments can make me a millionaire. My shifts have came from understanding of WHO and WHAT I believed money to be, and WHO and WHAT
I believed about myself !!
How many times have we all said "If I just had more money...."
I felt this push a 100 days ago to really examine that statement.
If I just had more money than what ?
Would I appreciate it ?
Would I still take it for granted and continue to wish for more ?
Would I use it for what I think I would ?
Would I feel I deserved it ?
Would it make me any happier ?
I do have a new relationship with money--We had to BLOW up our relationship and start from scratch and get to know each other in brand new way without any other persons opinion or input but my own.
I had to learn that I was worthy --with or without money
I had to learn that GUILT is useless and a waste of good energy
I had to learn that Lack was so deeply rooted that it was affecting so many actions
I had to learn to love life --MY LIFE -- with EXACTLY what I had at the moment
I had to learn to not apologize for who I am--PURE ACCEPTANCE
I had to learn that money was no more of a solution to my problems than a makeover is to self esteem. Temporary fixes to a Deeper Ocean.
My new buddy, money and I still have a lot to learn about each other and getting use to operating differently around money will still take me a bit of time. I loved this process and I am eternally grateful that I pushed myself to go through with it. It feels good to be on this side of things and know that this was a gift that I not only gave to myself but hopefully to my children.
Amy Lynn Sell
Holistic Health Educator, sharing the moments of an awakened life !
Day 97 of #100daysoflovingmoney
Not too much is happening on the money front these days until I had a tooth infection show up and the dental work I have run from for half my lifetime is catching up with me. So in some ways this was not totally unexpected, it was just not what we were planning on spending our money on right this minute.
Timely enough, one of my kids were watching the movie "Up" last night and Carl and Ellie had an unfortunate twist of their baby dreams not happening so they channeled all of that into their savings for their vacation. However things happen that needed that money; new roof, tires, broken bones, etc. So each time they had to forgo their trip to pay for the unexpected.
This was US !!
We had just some money tucked away to take our family on vacation and my dental work shows up, and now the summer hit and there are things the kids want to participate in that is slowing taking the fund down.
The curious thing to me was when I was confronted with that bill, I was not afraid ! I was not worried, or stressed or concerned in the slightest. I think when you are faced with something that just HAS to be taking care of --there is no reason to fight it. Would I have been in this state of mind 97 days ago ?? I am not sure. I remember the last time I was confronted with my dental cost and yes it did freak me out a bit, but now I can't run any longer--it has to be done or I am going to lose my teeth !!!
I suppose that is the same reason people will spend tons of money to take care of themselves when confronted with an illness that could possibly take their life. We start to get a less concerned about our coin when our mortality is concerned or something that would significantly change our way of being.
Now I would say paying for a new roof or tires just doesn't exactly pull on the heart or purse strings as much but these are things that we all must do at one point or another if we choose to live in this world with cars and homes so why does it always hurt when those things pop up ! I mean for most of us we don't plan that in. We already pay insurance and most of us are so happy to get a little extra from time to time that we don't want to put more back for the "not so fun" stuff.
I would think most financial planners or financial savvy people would encourage you to start putting back an emergency fund for things like this but all that to the side I want to explore the philosophical approach.
How could I handle this when an unexpected expenses occurs ??
(Assuming I have not put back the appropriate funds for such things)
*Is this where I start to put my manifestation skills to use--time to suit up and start visualizing ?
*Is this where I start to find as many things around my house to sell ?
*Is this where I beg, borrow and steal from family and friends ?
*Do I wallow in my self pity and just put in on my credit card hoping for the best ?
*Do I forgo the vacation knowing that there will be next summer ?
Which of these or another choice "Feel the most Freeing ?" Which one makes the most logical sense ?
Do you pick logical or freeing ? Can there be both ?
I honestly don't have the answers to this for myself yet. I have a sneaky suspicion that our vacation plans may have suddenly changed but who knows !! What would you do --how would you choose without feeling someone just smashed your piggy bank to pieces ?
Spoiler Alert: if you have not seen the movie please don't read this part until you do. After so many crazy UNEXPECTED things happen to Carl and he is beating himself up for not making his Wife's adventure dreams come true, he finds the last part of her book and see's that their ordinary life together was her adventure and she treasured all of it !
So my mystical side would gather to say that, maybe the unexpected expenses in our life is just our soul reminding us that our present ordinary life is already enough and when we are detoured like this --could it be just a chance to stop and realign with what is really important ?
I would have never guessed that some dental work and a kids movie would have such an impact on how I viewed life this week !
Amy Lynn Sell
Holistic Educator and Soul Work, exploring what its like to live an awakened life
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Day 89 of #100daysoflovingmoney
After some clearing with money around my ancestors, I have felt like a different person. I have been so at ease with the idea of money with spending and giving in a way I had not been in a long time. The next level apparently now is in the doing.
Sitting here outside, enjoying this gorgeous spring day with all most of my to-do's behind me I am beating myself up for sitting here doing nothing !!! I should be pursuing my business more, I should be marketing, I should be networking, I should, should, should !!! I should all over the place today !!!
Then low and behold my best friend calls and she is WAY over her head with things to do and you know what else she was doing ---She was over there beating herself up for not "doing" enough and she has double the amount of things going on that I do. That right there was a big RED FLAG for me. It doesn't matter how much we have or don't have on our plate, we have all conditioned ourselves to feeling guilty for not doing ENOUGH !!!!
Well I basically said --F@#$ that !! I think it is time to stop this madness. So I do what I always do, I consort with my guidance because of course that is a bigger higher perspective that I just don't have here in this body. I was still feeling like my "doing" or "not doing" was the reason I was not rolling in it yet, but as always I was being given a bigger lesson on life than just earning money. I was being given that Time and presence are a precious commodity to not be wasted or ignored. There would always be opportunities for money but time can not be regained.
I was told that being able to stop and soak it all in was such a gift and that people spend their whole lifetimes --doing and earning to do that--to just be able to feel like they could sit on their porch and soak it in and do nothing. I was given such a beautiful image of how being present and soaking life in was such a gift to God and that when we are in the doing --we don't tend to stop and take anything in. Those moments of what I would call nothingness took on a whole new meaning today after that time. I was visited by a grandmother figure that showed me how to see this time differently and that "doing" was never my problem.
She had showed me that I came from a long line of woman that were "doers" and working hard was our badge of pride even if it sacrificed own well being. She showed me that my generation of woman were to relax more into our life in way that allowed more time to just "Be" and not always be concerned with "Doing
She showed me this space of when I was a kid and how I craved for hours of endless time to play or just lay in the grass with no real responsibilities and now as an adult I feel guilt for it. She gave me permission to enjoy that space --freely without guilt or shame ! She showed me that the kid in all of us wants to be given that permission so that life can shift in ways that stem from love and creativity--from inspired action not endless doing !
Shortly after all of this --I found this picture and I about fell over !!! This could not be more perfect for the messages I have been given lately.
I was given this time and space to learn how to love it and appreciate it in a way I have never been able to before. I shown today that is why there is not much happening for me right now because I needed to understand this space and learn why it was here and what it had to teach me. That money was a piece of this story of mine but there were other lessons that needed to come first !
Well after that --how could I not go back outside and soak up the goodness that was being gifted to me that I almost "Shoulded" away !!!
Amy Lynn Sell
Holistic Health Coach and Soul Worker
Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.