Day 34 of #100daysoflovingmoney
I just had an amazing morning of CONNECTION between a group of woman that highlighted something I had been noticing about my money. The lack of connection I feel with it. When I thought about it more, it reminded me of 2 transactions I had yesterday.
The 1st one-- I paid for parking with my credit card--the exchange was punching in numbers
Then 2nd one--I paid for my lunch with cash. I physically had to touch my money--hand it someone and then take money back from this person.
There was something so different I felt on the 2nd one--a real connection to what I was exchanging for was real and personal.
When I started this journey --the idea was to build a new relationship with money and we all know that relationships NEED connection. So much of our money is just numbers on a screen that get passed back and forth without any real physical touch on it.
** Our Paychecks get sent right to our bank and sometimes our Savings accts do too. ( I know some of us remember that we use to have savings--HA !!)
** We pay for things online and swiping a card with no interaction between people.
** We Even now Gift Money or Pay People back Electronically
Now, I am not saying I don't enjoy the convenience factor of ALL of these methods but I did realize it was hard for me to find a "LOVING" connection to something I rarely see, touch or smell for that matter. The other day when I was looking to find gratitude for my money I just could not muster up much emotion until I saw those coins ! Here was something that I could touch and there were lots of them, the sound,smell and the thought of seeing them build up higher and higher in the jar was really fun and exciting. It brought me back to the essence of being a kid and earning money and watching it accumulate before your eyes !
Years ago when we were attending this church and we were tithing on a regular basis, they started to come out where you could automatically pay for your tithe. First of all I know this made the secretary very happy to not, have to deal with all of those checks and cash every week so I appreciate what that did for her and her time. I however felt incredibly disconnected from this. I asked if I could write a check each week because I thought it would help connect me to the money I was giving away. It didn't !! I actually forgot about this until all of this came up. Writing a check still felt like I was missing the interaction of giving and receiving.
I have always been a tactile kid. It would drive my mom crazy when she took me to the store and I would have to TOUCH everything !!! I just loved connecting with whatever I saw. The empath in me was super active WAY before I even knew I had that quality. I never realized until this moment how much this touch process really embedded me with what I was with !
So now that I am writing this out I realize that my connection to money needs to be a tactile one--or at least I would like to find a way to "feel" that connection more with the numbers I see on the screen.
It makes me think that I crave the energy of money and when you don't have your hands on it--you don't make that energetic connection
This quote found me today and it spoke to me so vividly and especially because I have been totally immersed with the concept of time lately too !!!
I might have just found myself a new rabbit hole......
Money, disconnection, time, touch, connection
Educator on the connection of mind and body, Hippie at Heart, mother of 4, Living in the MIdwest --changing to change the world one idea at a time !