Day 53 of #100Daysoflovingmoney
My triggers around money are not coming near as fast and furious as they were in the beginning but when I find one --they are Big ones !! I actually love this process so much because for me it is a place of empowerment. I can't not change what I don't know is there so when I find those hidden beliefs that keep me operating at a level I don't want--its exciting to find them !!
This one popped up randomly as many of them do with a conversation between a friend and I about her new avenue into relationship coaching. We were discussing the how when people are dating there is less expectations versus when you are married. This word Expectation was the word that caught my attention. This is not a new word for me to know that I have some triggers around however this time it was hitting on a deeper level and come to find out on my money level as well.
I took this word into my meditation that day and got curious about what that was bringing up for me and Boom I was transported to my memories of being a kid and living with a parent that had SOOOO many expectations that I never felt I could meet. There was this place where we could not do it good enough, fast enough or just not enough was the underlying theme. So because I am stubborn and will do anything not to be controlled I shut down and did nothing.
I found myself under performing in almost every category of my life. I signed up for EVERYTHING looking for that place where I was good at something and if I was not good at it I would bail the first moment something got hard. So I under did a lot of things in my life.
Now here's the kicker. I found myself getting frustrated at the people who came into my life that were not meeting my expectations. I was getting frustrated that people were not doing things like the way I was doing !!!! This my friends is how you recognize self sabotage. When you find yourself getting upset with people for doing the thing you never felt okay to do !!
I am feeling pretty good about this now and I feel confident after going in and releasing that scenario, putting in some new beliefs for myself and overall feeling pretty much like I got this nailed !
Later that night --I had someone text me right before bed and ask if I had decided what I wanted to charge for my services yet. I said no, I haven't because I am still creating what I want to offer and its still taking shape. As I am laying there in bed that night thinking of what he asked--I heard myself say--Oh man if I charge more people are going to be expecting more. Woah !!!!!
There it is--that Word Expectation !! Right then I had several more flashes of times in my working past that I completely undervalued my services. I thought of three right off the bat--boom boom boom. I thought to myself--that is crazy how that has been hanging out in there operating my life for so long !!!
Again--LOVE finding those stories --because now I know what to do ! I do what I always do==I release that story that I no longer want to carry around. Then I give myself a new story to take forward. This is so stinkin exciting because I have so many good things to offer to people --I have so many ways of showing people the way back to their own personal power and now I am one step closer to getting out of my own way !!!!
Money, Beliefs, expectations, 100 days of loving money
Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.