Day 80 of #100days of loving money
I have made a lot of progress on my mindset in 80 days but there is one area that seems to not want to let go very easy !! LACK !!!!!
This time of year I am really getting some good doses of what I still believe and what my patterns are. For all of you school age parents, you know the end of the year brings about a slew of projects, events, celebrations etc. that all seem to want some form of payment. Whether that is time, or money. We are working on planning a vacation and for some reason this is the time of year where our sports have picked up for a couple of my kiddos and it is just money, money, money.
I love all of it, wouldn't change a thing.....except how I FEEL about it. I noticed myself having moment after moment of where I feel pressured with too much going out and not enough coming in. Now the first thing we as humans do is try to "fix" our situation by thinking of how can I get MORE !! Lucky for me I have done enough personal work to know that MORE does not really fix the issue, it just puts a flimsy band aid on it for a short time. So this is where I sat this morning--just wondering why this area for me just won't go away by wishing it so. Through all of my progress with this money mindset why is Lack so deep rooted within me ?
I sat myself down first thing this morning after everyone was gone and started to get curious about this. I could not understand why this was such a strong pull on me. I NEVER wanted for anything growing up. I have ALWAYS had what I needed and lots of time stuff I wanted as an adult. I have never gone hungry, or homeless or been without work. So what is the DEAL ? Then I was given the answer in such a whisper but it made more sense to me than anything else has. This was not mine !!! This FEAR, this LACK was never mine but carried through me from generations before me. I mean decades and decades of generations !!
If you have ever heard of generational trauma you will know exactly what I mean ! This came up for me around Day 41 and I realize it is coming back around again for me to take a deeper look at this. This makes a lot of sense to me for a couple of different reasons. One, I came here to heal emotional wounds. I am not sure why this is my work, it just is and I have learned to embrace that part of my reality more and more. The second part is about a month ago I had a meetup of woman who were all incredibly powerful intuitive woman. The day we all met, the GRANDMOTHERS showed up ! Mine, my friends and tons more. They surrounded us as we met and we were told they were here to help us evolve. The energy in that room that day was so incredibly loving and powerful at the same time.
The message I kept getting that day was they were there to tell us that we did not have to live the way they all did. That time and circumstances and knowledge had propelled us into a new way of being but we were still carrying around the energetic and emotional baggage of past generations and they were there to help us let it go. For as magical as that day was it is amazing how quickly you forget what the message was. I suppose this is where the seed was planted and for each one of us it had to grow and blossom in our time and way. This morning I felt like it was that first shoot sprouting up out of the dirt !! That AH HA --moment of truth !!!
Then I just did what I know to do and that was to go in and intentionally release the FEAR of Lack from ALL generations in my family--Past--Present--and Future. I know that time is an earthly thing but since we are here I will play in the realms of time while I am here. I instantly felt sooo much lighter and happier and there was this space in me. It is a hard thing to describe if you have not had that experience but it literally feels like an open space in your body where there was something dense before. One of my favorite teachers reminds me all of time that when we make space in our body--make sure to fill it back up with what the soul WANTS, otherwise the ego will fill it up with protective nonsense and we will be right back where we started ! She obviously stated that much more eloquently but the point is the same. Release and Fill !! Release what no longer serves you and fill it up with what you would prefer. So I filled that space with Certainty. Certainty of Security and Prosperity, Love and Acceptance for many generations to come.
I have no idea if I will be called to keep moving through different layers of this or not but today most defiantly felt like a shift in the right direction.
Generational, Healing, Beliefs, Families, Limiting Beliefs, Money, money beliefs
Amy Lynn Sell
Holistic Healing Coach and sharing life of being an Awakened Soul .
Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.