Day 60 of #100daysoflovingmoney
Yesterday I was confronted by someone who has known me for a long time. They did not understand why I was doing this money thing and told me "I had too much time on my hands and I need to go get a F*#$in job and live in the real world"
Talk about a slap on the face for a Monday morning ! After the initial sting from that I spent the morning just taking that in and sorting that out. The crazy part is, I was not mad at this person at all ! I actually had deep respect that they were so brutally honest especially since we only have surface conversations once or twice a year. That took some courage.
What I saw when I really took in those words was me. Those words echoed the feelings I had harbored for years. The feelings of guilt about not getting a job like everyone else did, the shame of staying home longer than other moms did. The guilt of not bringing home a regular paycheck. The shame of trying to stay as free as possible to create and build something of my own that so far as had minimal success.
The amount of time I use in my days to feel all of this came crashing into me yesterday morning after that conversation. I took ownership of it ALL !!! I knew I was given the gift of hearing my feelings through the mouth of another soul and with this --I finally had some freedom.
I have had to be brutally honest with myself over the last 10 years. Things no one wants to take ownership of about themselves. However EVERY single time I do--when I get really brutally honest with who I have been --it cracks open the door to healing in way nothing else can. So I truly believe Healing follows honesty.
I will give you a piece of advice though, it is WAY less painful to go in and be honest with yourself than it is to wait so long you have to hear it out of the mouths of your friends or family.
That person that shared their opinion with me yesterday, I thank you !! That was what I needed to FREE myself of the bondage of my guilt and shame that kept me from moving forward and doing the things my heart is calling me to do.
And FYI--I will not be "Getting a Job" to be in the real world--because I am fulfilling a mission that helps to HEAL the world that has had to function in our so called "real world" for too long !!
Honesty, Healing, 100 days of loving money, Job, money, beliefs, limiting beliefs
Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.