Day 35 of #100daysoflovingmoney
Let me take you for a walk in my brain for the day so you can either resonate or think "Good Grief" do people still think this way !
I was flying high yesterday on a cloud of connections and Ah ha's that were going to turn this whole ship around and move me into my oceans of desire. I was feeling so good I called my husband and said "lets take the family out for dinner" kind of good. My family of six for dinner, which I rarely allow myself to do kind of good . This was a decision I was totally happy about until that moment when the check came. In the matter of seconds I went from having a great time to Ugh--"that's expensive" which in turn triggered "Oh man now there's not enough for _______________".
It really doesn't matter what there wasn't enough for --I just felt the pangs and that space again of "Not Enough". The perpetual fear of lack I cycle in and out of my brain and then operate this belief with every action I take. Now, a couple of things caught my attention on this. First I caught it pretty quick, and it popped up RIGHT after I allowed myself to operate bigger.
This is actually a great thing I realized today because it lets me know I am on the right track. In the moment I could not recognize it for what it was, however today I can see it showing me that my "Belief" system is not there yet. I have not matched the frequency and vibration of "There is an abundance" , "There is ENOUGH" yet. If you did not catch that--I am not fully aligned with that YET !!!!
This was part of our topic of conversation yesterday about when you are from
Point A--Desiring Something and you want to get to
Point B --The Belief Desired or Outcome
Funny that the conversation has now become my own experimental course in this area of desire meeting reality in the form of freaking out about paying for dinner.
The point is I will now have to realize where I am at currently and keep taking some steps to "FEEL" more abundant. This is NOT going to happen in my current environment the way I have been using my time so here is my plan:
1. I am going to get into my play space in my head a bit more and start researching some trips and go through the whole process of lining up lodging, airfare, activities and maybe even putting up some pictures so I can REALLY get my head in the game.
2. Take a $100 Bill out the Bank and Carry it around and as I go places I am going to mentally have fun with all the things I could buy with that $100 each and every place I go.
This was tip I found in this article and he has several more if you need more ideas
8 Magical Ways to Feel More Abundant
Obviously this is not Rocket Science --it IS Quantum Science. I have been pouring myself into learning all of this information for years and I really want to embody it, use it, experiment with it and ultimately KNOW that I have the ability all along to apply it !! I am grateful for dinner experience last night for showing me where I needed to go next !
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Educator on the connection of mind and body, Hippie at Heart, mother of 4, Living in the MIdwest --changing to change the world one idea at a time !