Day 89 of #100daysoflovingmoney
After some clearing with money around my ancestors, I have felt like a different person. I have been so at ease with the idea of money with spending and giving in a way I had not been in a long time. The next level apparently now is in the doing.
Sitting here outside, enjoying this gorgeous spring day with all most of my to-do's behind me I am beating myself up for sitting here doing nothing !!! I should be pursuing my business more, I should be marketing, I should be networking, I should, should, should !!! I should all over the place today !!!
Then low and behold my best friend calls and she is WAY over her head with things to do and you know what else she was doing ---She was over there beating herself up for not "doing" enough and she has double the amount of things going on that I do. That right there was a big RED FLAG for me. It doesn't matter how much we have or don't have on our plate, we have all conditioned ourselves to feeling guilty for not doing ENOUGH !!!!
Well I basically said --F@#$ that !! I think it is time to stop this madness. So I do what I always do, I consort with my guidance because of course that is a bigger higher perspective that I just don't have here in this body. I was still feeling like my "doing" or "not doing" was the reason I was not rolling in it yet, but as always I was being given a bigger lesson on life than just earning money. I was being given that Time and presence are a precious commodity to not be wasted or ignored. There would always be opportunities for money but time can not be regained.
I was told that being able to stop and soak it all in was such a gift and that people spend their whole lifetimes --doing and earning to do that--to just be able to feel like they could sit on their porch and soak it in and do nothing. I was given such a beautiful image of how being present and soaking life in was such a gift to God and that when we are in the doing --we don't tend to stop and take anything in. Those moments of what I would call nothingness took on a whole new meaning today after that time. I was visited by a grandmother figure that showed me how to see this time differently and that "doing" was never my problem.
She had showed me that I came from a long line of woman that were "doers" and working hard was our badge of pride even if it sacrificed own well being. She showed me that my generation of woman were to relax more into our life in way that allowed more time to just "Be" and not always be concerned with "Doing
She showed me this space of when I was a kid and how I craved for hours of endless time to play or just lay in the grass with no real responsibilities and now as an adult I feel guilt for it. She gave me permission to enjoy that space --freely without guilt or shame ! She showed me that the kid in all of us wants to be given that permission so that life can shift in ways that stem from love and creativity--from inspired action not endless doing !
Shortly after all of this --I found this picture and I about fell over !!! This could not be more perfect for the messages I have been given lately.
I was given this time and space to learn how to love it and appreciate it in a way I have never been able to before. I shown today that is why there is not much happening for me right now because I needed to understand this space and learn why it was here and what it had to teach me. That money was a piece of this story of mine but there were other lessons that needed to come first !
Well after that --how could I not go back outside and soak up the goodness that was being gifted to me that I almost "Shoulded" away !!!
Amy Lynn Sell
Holistic Health Coach and Soul Worker
Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.