Day 54 of #100daysoflovingmoney
My tax appt is tonight and of course this is the day I chose to make sure I had everything in order ! The process of gathering and hunting was not near as bad as I thought and it actually makes me quite proud of the organization I have created for myself and my finances. What came out the blue was OF COURSE some emotions about what I had spent my money on last year.
There was quite a bit of shame and guilt around the things I chose to spend my money on, the guilt of not making more than I did, the guilt of saying yes to things that in my heart did not always feel right. I felt shame for putting our family finances backward not forward. When I saw it all in front of me with a number sign attached to it --I was finding myself really down about my choices.
Once again I have the best people in my life to remind me that life is just one big experience and I will have no idea how those things I spend money on will be helpful for me in the future and that is was basically all okay.
Logically one can understand this but it did not help what my body felt but it got me out of my head long enough to just sit down and let myself FEEL the guilt and shame. Sometimes when I do this I feel them like they are just vibrations and I let them just vibrate up and down until they just move out of me. Then I know its done, those emotions were allowed to come up and be processed.
At this moment I don't exactly feel fantastic about it, nor do I feel bad. That might be that neutral space where it just is what it is.
Between some of my friends and I we realize that taxes can bring up a lot of things emotionally for people. Fears of not having enough, not doing enough, not doing it the right way. Guilt over mismanagement, or lack of organization, or the guilt of the sheer responsibility of it all that surrounds doing taxes.
I am sure there are a ton of other things that come up emotionally just from taxes alone. Money has some powerful ties to our emotions.
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Amy Lynn Sell
My goal is to give people a new perspective that enables us all to have health without a prescription. Mind Body work is my passion. I provide education and resources to those who are open to addressing their health through 5 Key areas of Nutrition, Emotions, Physical, Spiritual, and Energetic areas of the body.