Day 26 of #100daysoflovingmoney
Most people LOVE the weekends--I DO NOT ! To me they are endless hours of trying to fill the time with things to do. Things to keep myself busy, things to keep the kids off screens, things to create family time, things to feel like I am doing all the things to make those 2 days magical, special and fulfilling !!!-- ARGHHHHHHH I love when Mondays come around because the pressure is off to fill all that space !!
So here we are on another day where we are all sitting around and no one has plans other than my husband who is thrilled to go to the grocery store AGAIN ( I am not kidding) this guy LOVES to go to the grocery store --that is idea of fun. Him and my daughter just love to go as many times a week as they can--but I am over here agonizing that I need to get my 10 year old off the screen, I have not spent near enough time with my older boys and I am not interested in doing what my daughter wants to do because it all revolves around spending money !!
There is that thing again--that thing that is always looming in my mind about spending money !! I actually don't mind spending money on things that come up that we want to do--what I can't stand is when we go and spend money to just "entertain" us ! Plus whatever we choose to do is (times 4 or 6 ). So a $20 activity is now $100 activity that last for about an hour or two. Then what ???
At the present moment -I don't whether I am more conflicted with the entertaining part or the money part or BOTH ? All's I know is that pretty much most weekends, most school breaks, and especially Summer - this is my headspace that I am in. I am sure it does not help that it is cold, windy and sloshy.
I would love to report back that by day 26 I was well on my way of being in a great headspace about money but I have a feeling the first half of this challenge is wading through all the BS I have built up over 40+ years. Just like I counsel people with their health--It Ain't going to be all fixed in 30 days so get use to the long term goal !
So today in my meditation I will open myself up to these questions:
Where am I still feeling lack ?
What is this pressure to entertain all about ?
Why are these two together such a Hot SPOT for me ?
Then we will see where those questions lead me to next !!
Money, mindset, money story, family time, beliefs, limiting beliefs
Educator on the connection of mind and body, Hippie at Heart, mother of 4, Living in the MIdwest --changing to change the world one idea at a time !